This week there was a terrible accident involving a church bus returning from summer camp in Michigan. The youth director, his pregnant wife, and  the 51 yr. old mother of a special needs child were killed. The Mother  served as a chaperone that week to spend time with her child there. 12 teens were injured, one critical. My friend and employer’s son was on the bus and suffered a concussion, with neck and back injuries.

WHY?

That is the question that torments me when these things occur. I understand and believe in Gods sovereignty and Omniscience. But I would be lying if I told you I was perfectly alright with this type of thing. I have talked with a couple of friends about this to, first of all, get it out of my heart and into my ears and the ears of a trusted godly friend and mentor. Second to get his input of these events to give me insight, and advise on how to process it. But I still was not at peace. I know because I recognize the sarcasm, and cynicism in my attitude  this week.

Years ago I lost my oldest son to suicide. he was 16 yrs old. I won’t go into all of that, but it shook my faith to its foundation, and damaged my ability to live in Trust of God.

I knew I was a Christian, I knew God loved me, I knew that I would see my son again one day. I kept telling myself I’m fine, I’m ok everything  will be ok. But everything was not ok, and it would take 15 years and a broken marriage before it would be ok. I had trust issues with God, and anger, that I was denying, even to myself. I was in a spiritual tail spin that was destroying me and anyone who dared love me. A few years later, my youngest son died of complications of Kidney failure. Did not help the situation.

About 6 years ago through the loving kindness of a Methodist Church in Florida, I was loved back into relationship with God, and I have grown in that relationship ever since.

I know what the scripture says…Jeremiah 29:11 For I know the plans I have for you,” says the Lord. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope.

Psalm 32:8 The Lord says, “I will guide you along the best pathway for your life.

Romans 8:28 And we know that God causes everything to work together for good to them that love him, to those who love God and are called according to his purpose for them.

I have redeveloped a confidence and trust in my Abba Father, and I thought all was well, until this happened. I knew I wasn’t right, I have a relationship with the lord now that allows me to see I wasn’t right. I spent time in prayer and fellowship with God and wanted to know I was alright. But this question WHY??? kept coming at me.

After some serious discomfort, and soul-searching, and sharing this with godly friends who have permission to speak truth into my life, I have come to this conclusion…… We may not always know the Why…… The ways that God interfaces with us about that are as different as each individual. The real question is not the Why? but the Who? If We truly believe what we say we believe, and trust that we have the preserved Word of God. If we believe God’s promises, Then it is not about the Why but the Who. God is in control. His ways are above our ways. He does have a plan for each believer, and that plan is for good. I do not need to always know the Why, because I believe and trust in my God. That may sound simplistic and authoritative to some, nevertheless it is true. That is what Faith is all about.
David was always transparent before God. He was open and trusted God enough to be real with him about everything.

Be a man after Gods own heart….

Be a man like David….

So the Real question is Why Trust God?

Maybe the next blog will discuss that question……Jesus loves you and so do I.